end it all ?

so many things have happen in this period of time .
everything just come clashing towards me .
i cant seem to handle it anymore .
worse of all , all th things tht had happen, aint gd at all .
all bad things .
r/s ; friendship ; academy.
who knows, one day when i dream,
i will dream of a devil holding th sharp sharp thingy ,
pointing at me .
"heheh. i shall see how u are going to handle ur prob"
instead of my normal ; sweet dreams, which i dont made it anymore. ):

is it just tht im dwn on my luck ?
or tht this yr isnt just my year ?
went blog surfing . everytime i enter a blog of my friend,
my heart will jump a little, for fear tht one of their post will be about all my bad things .
i think its just tht i am sensitive ba .
even if i am, i must say , some things are just beyond my control .
im weak emotionally , i must totally admit it .
i may appear to be a strong gal ; tht maybe able to withstand all blows tht are falling upon me .
but i must say , all th things tht had happen this yr ,
not one has bin able to make me smile dwn deep frm my heart.

well , had been thinking alot lately . esp today .
noticed th changes in terms of atd of my friends ; environment.
being kaypo is one of my talents . hahah .
first is i got dumped ; thn my friends started leaving me ; thn her ..
ahhh ~ crapped . will thr be any good things tht God has given me ?
maybe i shudnt blame Him la .
hahah ! He's th best (:

maybe..maybe..maybe..
one slash across my wrist may end it all. (:


elaine, do u find this pic familiar ? hahah !